Crazy dreams

I had a dream Tuesday night... I went to this beautiful old part of town with English Tudor houses, I was going to dinner at my friend Elton John's house. It was a gorgeous spread... Cheetos for appetizers, chicken and dumplings for dinner... And for dessert... OMG... for dessert he had... (Wait for it....) DORITOS!! 

Then right afterwards I put on my white sweater that smelled like sugar cookies and went outside and got onto an old white painted wooden roller coaster with my hubby holding my hand and then I woke up. 

If that dream didn't tell me how I'm feeling these days, nothing will. 

So my hubby bought me a bag or Doritos, a bag of Cheetos and I had ONE from each bag. The dream has stopped and I'm ok now. 

Sometimes I think you just gotta let yourself taste/have what you want to get past it and keep moving forward.

It's a HP Day!

So what is HP you ask? My code word for Happy Pee. And what is happy pee? That lovely clear Easter egg yellow pee you produce when you're getting enough hydration and all your fluids in. Today I have HP. And it's been quite a while because I struggle so bad with the nausea. Today is also the first day I've been able to drink 2 scoops of muscle milk protein powder in 16 ounces of water and it only took me 4 hours to get it down! That means I'm hitting the 1 ounce every 15 minutes target! Yay! 

Happy for the small victories and getting half my protein in for the day. 

 

Today I'm also seeing Trainer Sadie for the first time in nearly. 6 weeks. Hopefully we can discuss how to get me back into the gym and a plan to start training again. I've missed her positiveness and support. 

Feels like today is gonna be a good day... Finally. 

Still feeling sick...

Weight: 229.8

I have reached my 1 month surgiversary. I'm 32 days out and have lost an average of a wee bit over 1 pound a day. I've lost 34 pounds and I'm still having a difficult time keeping food down. 

I'm trying various foods and am now eating anything I can that's high in protein (god forbid I not get enough protein and begin losing my hair). I've tried every protein shake under the sun it seems. Everything is still so sweet I can't handle it. I'm taking zofran for nausea. It helps, but I think it's making me constipated.  I eat whatever will stay down with little issue. Salmon, shrimp, oatmeal, chicken and cheese are my staples. Fluids are difficult. I can only tolerate vitamin water zero in the xxx flavor. I've recently been able to keep down TAZO chai with a bit of 2% milk added. Plain water is difficult and I have to concentrate to not vomit when I drink. 

I experienced a two week "stall" where I didn't lose any weight at all. But I'm losing a ton of inches and over the last week I've been fitting into those clothes that I never got rid of because "someday I'll fit into them again" well someday is here however I think it will go quickly and they won't fit for long once the scale begins to move again. Pants I've had altered to fit and were a bit snug when I got them back (2 weeks ago) are now so loose I can stick my arms down the sides. 

My husband has been INCREDIBLY supportive. This has not been easy on him either. I vomit sometimes with no prior warning. Just all of a sudden it comes up. We're keeping little buckets around the house so I have something to get sick in if I can't make it to the bathroom in time. Or I'll vomit in bed when we're trying to go to sleep and my body finally relaxes. (Although this is getting better and is not as frequent). He does an amazing job to find things for me to eat and understands when I simply cannot make dinner for him because it's just too much and I can't tolerate cooking. 

My sutures are still healing. I can feel the knots of the sutures and incisions inside my body. I still have scabs on my stomach and can only imagine if my skin looks this way how long it's taking for my massive hiatal hernia and my VSG to heal. 

The up side is I'm sleeping better. I now wear a Jawbone UP to keep track of my movement, track my sleep and also set to remind me every 15 minutes to drink and move. 

A great "treat" for me is a little bit of almond butter with some banana slices. Or some frozen yogurt. 

I'm taking each day as best as I can, and hopefully the feeling icky part of this will go away soon. 

Happy New Year

Weight: 234.8

Happy New Year. One thing I've always loved is breaking out the calendar and looking at it unblemished with no history wondering how the time will pass and the days will fill with memories good and bad. 

This is going to be a new year for me. No matter what happens, this year is going to be different.

My weightloss is currently "stalled" although I find that an incredibly silly term to use. I've finished week 2 of being sleeved and have hit what appears to be a normal stop In this rapid weight loss. It seems that a 3rd week stall is normal. And you know what? I'm really ok with it. Seeing the weight fall off the way it was is really kinda scary. One night you go to bed and the next day you wake up 3 pounds lighter. :-/   Where did it go? And why weren't those weight stealing fairies visiting me before? 

I'm assuming this rapid weight loss happens because you are basically shocking the heck out of your body. First you're chopping off your stomach, then (in my case due to my massive hiatal hernia) I've rearranged all of my insides and my stomach is now smaller where it should be and no longer the size of a football pressing against my spine, bladder and residing in my chest cavity. 

No matter what, even if I weren't to lose another pound (I'd be pissed) but as my husband says, we're thankful that the surgery corrected the misalignment of my internal organs and saved me from possibly having my stomach rupture in my chest. 

I've been sleeping much better (per my hubby my breathing at night is no longer "labored". I did not have sleep apnea, however the pressure of the misalignment definitely took a toll on my lungs, bladder and spine.  I'm hoping once I get more food and protein in me, I'll have more energy. 

To catch up, I've had some really bad issues with vomiting. My fluids would not stay down. Your minimum intake of water should be 32 ounces...max 64 if not more. And to accomplish that you are to drink 1 ounce every 15 minutes. Except I would start vomiting and having severe stomach cramping and vomiting sudsy, foamy mucous and water. 

After calling my doctor we have found out that I am experiencing something most gastric bypass patients experience. My stomach is rejecting water. I'm to drink anything other than water. 

I've also been given some medication (the name escapes me right now) that helps people who have ulcers heal their stomachs.  So I'm being creative with making smoothies out of frozen peaches, fresh blueberries, spinach and a little 2% milk. 

While listening to the Elton John NYE concert at the Barclay Center being aired on Sirius XM Radio - The Blend, (and having a very romantic dance in the kitchen with my husband while Elton serenaded us with "Daniel", I decided I was going to try to do an egg for protein and have breakfast with my hubby. So I made poached eggs for the very first time. 

I kept mine a little softer and runnier as you can see but they were fabulous for my first time ever. Had some soft cubed potatoes with Four Corners Pepper from Savory Seasonings and our first breakfast of the new year was a hit. 

I hope for the best as this year progresses.